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I'm not even a very good natured person

Quite a few things came to mind to mention, but instead I'll just say the following:

I assume the best of people when possible. For a long time I assumed that the people I hang around with are simply unaware or fail to make the connection that the stuff they say are offensive to certain groups. I figure they simply don't believe the things they say are actually offensive.

I am apparently wrong.

So I am confused as to the proper course of action. As a matter of principle and practice, I do not stay angry long - thus it is difficult for me to remember precisely how much I have been infuriated, enraged, or deeply hurt and offended by the crass insensitivity of comments by those around me (these comments are not limited to those directly pertinent to myself). I do know, though, that it is a large amount, and I'm sure few understand that.

Again, I do not stay angry, and I feel little now. My real problem is how to correct the misconception that offensive comments aren't. It's a stupid stance, and since it requires a total lack of consideration for another group, I seriously question the value of such people. I feel a lot of guilt for not striking back more, or even at all. That my God's name could be mocked with such nonchalance in my presence shows that I am not only a lousy Christian, but I choose lousy people as friends. I am crushed that it took that to wake me to this problem.

But here I am getting angry. So I will stop.

Comments

I actually didn't realize you were that offended since you never really said anything. I'll definitely try to be more considerate in the future and I'm really sorry for anything I've said or done to hurt you.
Thanks, I appreciate that. And don't worry, I hold grudges like any emotion - fleetingly. (Besides, you're not much of one to make a slurr.)