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I'm not even a very good natured person

Quite a few things came to mind to mention, but instead I'll just say the following:

I assume the best of people when possible. For a long time I assumed that the people I hang around with are simply unaware or fail to make the connection that the stuff they say are offensive to certain groups. I figure they simply don't believe the things they say are actually offensive.

I am apparently wrong.

So I am confused as to the proper course of action. As a matter of principle and practice, I do not stay angry long - thus it is difficult for me to remember precisely how much I have been infuriated, enraged, or deeply hurt and offended by the crass insensitivity of comments by those around me (these comments are not limited to those directly pertinent to myself). I do know, though, that it is a large amount, and I'm sure few understand that.

Again, I do not stay angry, and I feel little now. My real problem is how to correct the misconception that offensive comments aren't. It's a stupid stance, and since it requires a total lack of consideration for another group, I seriously question the value of such people. I feel a lot of guilt for not striking back more, or even at all. That my God's name could be mocked with such nonchalance in my presence shows that I am not only a lousy Christian, but I choose lousy people as friends. I am crushed that it took that to wake me to this problem.

But here I am getting angry. So I will stop.

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So what are you going to do?

--Lissa
http://irrsinn.net
I've been asking myself that for months (I often try to prepare for worst case scenarios just in case - hope for the best, prepare for the worst and all that.)

Truth is, it is one of the only social problems I've never solved for myself. Inaction works for mild cases, no big deal - but it fails me now. I hate animosity and discord more than anything else - if I ever found found I stumbled another (and I have) it would crush me.

But I really have no way of getting others to feel that way. So I'll just stumble, skin my knees raw, and hope I don't trip for a while.