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Breaking the Cycle

Frustration. But here's what gets me: I don't know why. All my strength lies in my intuitive intelligence, which means very little of any brilliance I have is the fault of myself - just an over active background process. It also means I feel left out of my own loop (it's a really depressing thing to think about). So I start to figure out what's going on long after I've already set out to fix it.

I woke up at 3:30 this morning - two hours late from my scheduled time. It's alright though, because I woke up feeling pretty good - and I have a plan. Naps need to be 2.5 hrs long. To ease waking, I need to spend some time without my glasses on to avoid eye strain - that may be part of the reason waking hurts. And coffee - good stuff that is.

And it just occurred to me: I had nothing to strive for - no goals in life (just 'cuz it's clichéd doesn't mean it's obvious). Turns out coming to college to learn was my driving force. That's too directionless, since I've already taken my extra learning courses. So here's my new reason to be here: complexity - I wanna know how it works. Complexity has never lost its luster to me, and I think it may be incapable of being uninteresting. Interesting enough to get me through graduate school at least. Then I can teach it :)

For those of you keeping score - I am still lost, but I think a lot of my mood may be hinged on the seasonal weather. Some days happiness reigns, despite an intellectual understanding that things are not so great, and vice versa. Confound my convoluted thoughts...

Comments

Why 2.5 hours for a nap? Isn't the average sleep cycle 45 minutes? Seems like 3 hours would be a better number (that was my magic number sophomore year). *shrug*

Oh, and I posted a reply to your comment on my blog.

--Lissa
http://irrsinn.net

I forget where I looked this up...

Of course the real number varies from person to person. Too, the average sleep cycle is indeed about 45 minutes, but that is REM sleep. The other rhythms complicate that. A 45 minute nap would encompass the REM phase, but would induce grogginess since it interrupts another cycle at its peak. Typically, naps should be taken in 20 minute, 2 hour, 4 hour or 8 hour sets.

I would imagine your comfort zone would be something like 30 min., 3 hours, and 6 hours.

Mine's 25 min., ~2.5 hr. and 5 hours. I may have shifted my pattern into submission, though, and I do not recommend using my set as a baseline.

Re: I forget where I looked this up...

Fascinating. 30 min, 3 hours, and 6 hours (what I typically get per night) is exactly the range of sleep that is best for me. So weird.

The things you learn in a day... :-D

--Lissa
http://irrsinn.net
I can give you a ride to an optometrist if you need one.